Archive for April, 2007

Roses are Red, Yours are Redder

Roses are red, yours are redder
I keep on kissing you under
The condition that you love me better
The fading of roses will not me hinder.

Your eyes are blue, mine are bluer
For my flag has fallen by powder
Blown from cannons of your father
His upbringing made me weaker.

I give you red roses I know lesser
Than you but our coffee differ
Still your black resists my creamer
But all night it is my waker.

Even if my rose is red and yours is redder
Rest assured I will know you better
Tame your night mare this rider
Until we reach the climax even higher.

~o~o~

Dear Heather, thanks for tagging me, I enjoyed writing this piece.

I now tag Zaphodfreek, Kim , and Jeff to write a post that starts with the words “Roses are red…” and to tag three other bloggers!

Betrayal of Friendship

When I have been injected
With the vial of trust serum
I vomit all my secrets needed
Laser sighting your space premium.

We’re so adrenalin rushed
Exploring the concrete galaxy
Our timebomb alarm hushed
Hearts and egos in antigravity.

But your red giant became white dwarf
Increasing pull to matter and escaping light
The space around you began to warp
My company cluster could not put up a fight.

My words are asteroids on collision course
Blasted by you to annihilate the past
Good thing I had my field force
This encryption about you will be the last.

Soup with Soul

Kayshaun was not going to let his brother go to hell. Even if he had to disappear. They were all going to be with Pop in Heaven just as he had seen in that Bone, Thugz, ‘n’ Harmony music video, ‘See ya at the Crossroads’. He had filed in his memory how a brother had been wasted by gang violence, and its resurfacing now made him shake as a gun of ludicrously high caliber with a black mirror shine finish was level with his very white teeth. Cold sweat broke under his Lakers’ Bryant Jersey in the living room full of Basketball Star Posters. The daylight ricocheted from the wide windows seeming to cast the room into chiaroscuro. Children’s voices outside carried joy and innocence in their nursery rhymes.

“Kay, where is mah stash? You ain’t gonna make your big brother look bad to mister Smoke here. That’s two kilos of coke and ah want it now.” Michael Jordan Lawrence, so named because Pop was a Bull’s fanatic, was neither placating nor dead serious. He was hoping Kayshaun would be chickened by the gun and be scared enough to reveal where the merchandise had gone from under his bed. It would’ve bought his way to UCLA.

“This is very bad, bro, dealing with drugs and shit,” he almost sound like Cris Rock, “Are you gonna send brothers to their deaths, Mikey? Are ya gonna ruin them families, them lives with tha devilish white powder?”

“Just tell where did ya put it and I’m gonna give ya a hundred buck,” mister Smoke pulled the crackling bill out and snapped it with his two hands before his reflectorized shades, like James Brown in Las Vegas.

“You can shove that up yours, you walkin’ zombie. I wonder what voodoo raised ya up from the grave.”
“Don’t make me shoot you,” Michael had cocked the hammer of the .357 Smith & Wesson, “where the fuck is it!”
“Yeah, shoot the punk.”
“You’re not going down, are you bro? This is not how Pop raised us. I’m not going to let ya put the lives of the youth of our ‘hood down the drain. An’ ah did just that. I flushed the damn poison in the loo.”

Now, Michael’s face became lustrous as beads on his forehead refracted sunlight, contemplating thousands of dollars going down to the sewers beyond reach. But he was within the reach of his Cadillac-ed suppliers, whose mumbles had cops calling for back up, and were never found. Smoke was his buyer of a kilo. He’d spread the word of his screw up faster than Devin Harris’ crossover dribble.
“Shoot tha stupid brother! Shoot ‘im!” he said between yellowing teeth.
“If ah havta die so that you may live, so be it Michael. I’ll tell Pop how you helped Momma with the groceries and little Keesha with her homework. I’m gonna miss you bro,” Kayshaun tried to look brave and had stopped inhaling.
“You’re a dead black guy,” Smoke was urging almost hysterically. Michael’s face hardened, the muscles of his arm bulging as he leveled the barrel at mister Smoke. He was gone.
“Where’d he go?” Michael spat.
“He just of vanished!” Kayshaun cried. The brothers hugged. Relief and dread flooding their Afro and Dreadlock adorned heads.
“This is creeping me out, Kay. We gotta pack. We all goin’ to Uncle Bubba in Alabama, lay low for awhile.”
“I know a brotha who will buy that bling bling.”

“So, Morton, were you able to corrupt the boys? Please, taste the soup, it’s delicious,” mister Devlin was sipping from his meatball soup in Chao Fan’s Home of Chinese Cuisine in downtown, facing the busy street where roller blading bikini girls sped past.
“Forgive me, but he did not kill the boy. Their love for each other won out.” Devlin coughed the soup, spraying the air between them.
“My very, very dear apprentice, that ‘F’ word is a bit unbecoming amongst us, don’t you think? That word. It’s impolite, if not damn straight disgusting.”
“Master, I promise, I won’t fail again.”
“And that vanishing act is a tad reckless, Merlin.”
“He was going to shoot me!”
“Fool! That’s the point! That would’ve made another murderer for us. And you incompetent moron, they’re not supposed to know we exist! They have to blame God and each other for evil. You probably didn’t read the memo, Elmo,” Morton slumped on his chair, “you know, sonny, the Overlord doesn’t take kindly to failure. If I don’t do something it’s going to be my red ass on the grill,” his eyes began to turn dark red with emanating black light flames.
“Your lordship, no! I will do better next time, please—” red lightning connected from his eyes to the cringing underling no human eye could follow. A meatball that wasn’t in the soup before was wriggling in the bowl. He skewered it with a fork and calmly ate it as it squeaked. Mister Chao happened to pass by and decided to have a little PR with Devlin.
“Where is yo frend, mis’er Deblin? I thought I saw him here awhile ago.”
“He is going down with the soup.”
“Something wrong with the soup? Me replace pree of cha’ge!”
“Nah, don’t sweat it, mister Chao. In fact, I want some more.”
“Ah, tank you. Always good luck to serve regula’ customa.”
“I love eating in this town. My associates in Iraq aren’t so lucky.”

A Poetic Song from U2

I was moved to tears when I watched the U2 video last night. I got to thinking, eternity is so long, WHO WILL I SPEND IT WITH? I really wish my wife will be the one forever. One can just not know until the inevitable comes, and all the questions I’ve asked in this life will be finally answered or simply overwhelmed by the Larger Truth.

Where The Streets Have No Name

I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside
I want to reach out
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name

I want to feel, sunlight on my face
See that dust cloud disappear without a trace
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name

Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
We’re still building
Then burning down love, burning down love
And when I go there
I go there with you…
(It’s all I can do)

The cities a flood
And our love turns to rust
We’re beaten and blown by the wind
Trampled into dust
I’ll show you a place
High on ta desert plain
Where the streets have no name

Where the streets have no name
Where the streets have no name
Still building
Then burning down love
Burning down love
And when I go there
I go there with you
(It’s all I can do)

This song, in addition to the exquisite vocals of Bono and the progressive rock sound of this legendary band has very powerful imagery that contrasts the world as we made it and the world that is our final home.

“Dust cloud, poison rain”, these are the byproducts of the modern world, which is full of bickering over scraps and perishables, of people who are so afraid to risk the heart for love.

“We’re building this burning down love” is Bono’s way of using the words of destruction against itself, deliciously oxymoronic and ironical. Of course we have to burn down “The walls that hold me inside” so very metaphysical!

We have to “reach out and touch the flame”, signifying that eventually, we will all be living flames (souls), flames that we could not reach, touch, understand, and forgive while the living body imprisons it and subjects it to all sorts of human shallowness.

“The cities aflood, our love turns to rust”, of course what floods the world? Materialism, hedonism, selfishness. The love that is inside us becomes inutile in the face of this flood. That is why we have to rise above these petty desires, going “High on the desert plain”.

I cried when I heard “And when I go there, I go there with you. It’s all I can do”. Because, I thought of my wife, will she be with me until that time? A myriad of emotions coursed through me, fear, anxiety, longing, pain of being human, helplessness, hope, and a prayer to the Most High. I hope my prayer will be answered.

For U2, it is really a gift to have composed this song, this poetry that somehow answers the question of human emotional and spiritual enthropy.

A very beautiful, beautiful piece. The human mind never ceases to amaze.

WOMEN, LOVE, LIFE ITSELF

Mother of my life
Tears of stay from my wife
My neglect a cruel knife
To her and all give strife.

You know more of life than me
And love you yearn for patiently
This comes to you naturally
Because your heart feels more than me.

Outside of us was, is, and will be wrenching chaos
Where all sanity is lost
So you invite me to love at all costs
Yet my lust gave you no pause.

You know too well our souls must fuse
And uniting of hearts love is used
Being one we withstand the chaos that ensues
This loving soul to eternity will not lose.

So now I wipe your tears again
Your side I will never leave again
And if now you don’t find me again
In time I will find you again.

We will be one again.

Walking Dictionaries

The physics of the self can never be read by the self even though one fills one’s head with volumes of books about someone something else
One just doesn’t care about whatever I’m composed of or where I’m from or who made my parents’ parents
These are the questions I cannot answer so we just answer the questions outside ourselves until we forget the right questions in the first place
Then not fully understanding what we are while we vigorously look to outside our skin for bearings in time and space.

Using others as mirrors of ourselves and content with what others say of our actions then thus we notice more the differences than the similarities
The self reverts to the self then the questions ask the questions that can never be answered save others tell us again this is madness just touching the surface of implications and meaning
We are just like words that cannot be defined except by another word then is there a good definition, bad definition, or no definition at all.

Plumped on the Sofa

She is still
The fragrance of my
Long lost youth
Is in
Her.

Her length
Almost
Equals
The sofa
Before
I carried her
As an infant
In my arms.

She shifts suddenly
Caught me by
Surprise
Breaking my reverie
Telling me
She moves
On her
Own.

She dreams her dreams
As I quietly
Move on
To my study
Dreaming
For her
Happiness.

I see
My role
Piercingly clear
In silence.

Orpheus

String melodies like swaying grass called to the wind
That blew notes to her window through the curtain
That at night became lampshade gold dimmed
Where the beckoning of her silhouette was certain.

Passing her by the tree divined walks
Companions point to this nameless minstrel
Through my soul their eyes pierce like talons of hawks
On holding her my heart might as well be a damsel.

Spying her gaze as I play on the lawn
My fingers flew furiously along the strings
Touching her body with untitled song
Harmony licked the flesh while spreading its wings.

She flung her head back as I pluck below
Becoming lost in our shared symphony
Her hand caressed her bosom in the halo
Audience and player closer in bittersweet irony.

As my fingers ached the tunes did subside
Her joyful breath wafted down to his Orphean
Immaterial reward in my breast did reside
As the window lights winked out one by one.

Jealousy 2007

Jealousy is not jealousy
It is love
That sees the other as superior
Hence it is the jealous’ job
To put one down
So that Pride will not possess
The talented mind
The dexterous hand
The overflowing pen
The eagle eye
The envious are heroes
Making others feel like heels
So that they will not fly
Too high and forget themselves
Crashing on melted wings by green heat vision
Using the subtlety of words
Nuance of meaning
To spread doubt in persons
Lest they have too much confidence
Hence become too headstrong
And destroy democracy as skilled tyrants
So my friends jealousy is a necessity
To let you know
You have already arrived
When it kindly
Attacks you.

This Verse is Terrible

Discrimination is indiscriminate
You don’t have any merit
You might as well quit
Your humanity has no permit.

Discrimination is indiscreet
Can embarrass in any street
Treat people like walking meat
A harassed day they greet.

Discrimination is hellish
Separation they relish
From people they tarnish
Their greatness their hashish.

Discrimination is good
Unites people in the hood
Visitors are for firewood
Keep blood warm it should.

Discrimination I love
Saves me time to sub
Merge while people of
‘Not us’ show their true garb.